PRIVATE (hard to hack);

Why would Juudai do something like that? He was the one who always said that he wouldn't care if... Or was that a lie? Did I fall into a trap I should have seen coming?

I can't believe it. I just can't... believe that it happened at all.

If that's the way that it's going to be, then it's my fault. My responsibility, and my cross to bear. Fitting punishment. I won't let Juudai sacrifice himself for me, if that's what he was trying to do, though I have my doubts. And I won't let this conflict with Yubel turn into his problem. I can't.

... Then, that's all there is to it. I'll distance myself. That should keep Yubel content for the time being, I hope.

It feels too much like I'm running away

[[ backdated to before the sticky event and after this entry. Um... Johan's up for sticking, by the by, although lately he's been fairly reclusive compared to normal standards. ]]

It's almost time for a new year! Heh -- Let's hope that the next year is even better than this one! Of course, this year was pretty great, considering Juudai and Yubel ended up here. Although, if you think of it that way, it really wasn't that great since I'm sure they weren't pleased about that.

Everybody's been remembering stuff, too. It was the same last year, wasn't it?

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( cut for length/spoilers. )

JUUDAI -

Hey, Juudai! Remember anything interesting?

[[ a;sdfansdf okay. 3% used on the Sand World arc (since I'd already technically used 1%), 1% remaining. (2% of the turkey event memories used, 1% holiday). ]]

Wow... I hate to be repetitive, but castles? Haha, Memento Eden: nobody can accuse it of lacking imagination! I'm kind of liking this fairy tale thing - well, except for the fact that people seem to have forgotten who they are. I'm tempted to spoil endings, but hey, that wouldn't be any fun.

So, how's everybody holding up, for those of you who are "normal"?

... I bet Olette would have really liked to see this. Ah, stop being silly, Johan - she's better off where she belongs.

JUUDAI -

You're still normal, right? So, well, I was thinking - you haven't got a roommate anymore, and mine just moved out not too long ago. You think maybe you'd like to move in? Or vice versa.

Or we could get a place at the Memoria Apartments. I'm sure we could do fine splitting the costs between us. And there wouldn't be as much chaos there, I bet.

What are all these weird bird things...? "Turkeys," I keep hearing? I've never seen anything like them before. They're pretty excitable, aren't they? Somehow, this reminds me of those melon patches that appeared this summer, although the melons didn't attack people. I wonder if they taste good. Seems like we're going to be eating them for days, if what I'm reading is true. If these things keep it up, though, I'm going to have a hard time making it to work.

I also heard that there are some "pilgrims" or something like that around. Can't say I've heard of pilgrims, either. Maybe they're here to hunt turkeys, haha! That would be a pretty weird coincidence. Then again, knowing this place...

Juudai! Hey, Juudai! Let's catch a turkey. It'll be fun!

Haha, I'm having a great week... First that weird nightmare, and now Olette is gone.

Wherever she is, I wish her the best.

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It's strange, because this time it's happening to me. Somebody close to me is gone... What would I do if - if Tsuna, or Yubel, or Juudai left, too?

Hey, Olette. Where've you gone? Are you with Roxas now, maybe?

I hope you'll be happy, wherever you've gone to.

As for that nightmare... I think it's best if I just don't think about it too much. I can't even tell which part was the worst; the fact that I was ready to die or the fact that I honestly thought I was going to be saved.

[[ uh, and after some thinking about it, the last 1% goes to the season four Johan-Juudai duel. ]]

OLETTE -

It wouldn't be awkward if I asked you to the onsen party, would it?

If you've already got plans already, that's okay too. We'll have to make sure to meet up, though!

[[ He means it completely platonically, btw juudai told him to ]]

YUBEL -
Are you going to go to the onsen party?

It seems like everybody's back to normal now. I'm pretty glad; I prefer being of my usual gender.

"PRIVATE"; but not really -

I have to admit that... I've been kind of troubled lately. The Juudai that I remember isn't the same as the Juudai that I remember. Both the older and younger ones...

They're not the same. None of them are...

It doesn't matter to me, though. He's my... friend. I trust that feeling more than my memories.

I'm a - but I'm not -

This seems to be a pretty big problem, huh?

PRIVATE - hackable

I remember something interesting... I was in a tournament, and recieved the Gem Beasts. My family. But it's missing something... it's missing a card. The ace card.

And I remember another duel, with a woman named Giese.

... Whatever happened to her... she probably deserved it.

[[ O RITE. ~1.5% spent on winning the tourney where he got the Gem Beasts, ~1.5% spent on dueling Giese. 0% remaining. ]]

So, anybody want to learn to play Duel Monsters? Now that I remember more of it, I'd like to challenge myself a bit more. It's not that hard, really.

FILTERED; JUUDAI

I remembered you again. It was different this time, though.

You were older than you are now. That's not the only way you were different, though.

[[ Anybody around Johan will probably have noted he seems a bit more downcast than usual in the past few weeks, although he covers it up well. He'll be seen flipping through his cards in random places, apparently distracting himself frome something. Anybody with spiritual abilities may notice animals in the cards [ a cat, tiger, carbuncle, eagle, turtle, mammoth, and pegasus, to be specific ] flickering in and out. ]]

EDITED: [ after some careful thought, he's crossed out the private part and added the friends-only part at the bottom ]

PRIVATE [ hackable ] -

Darkness... of heart...?

That can't be. That... definitely can't be true.

PUBLIC -

How is everybody today~?

FRIENDS [ to anybody he's had a good conversation with; partially filtered against Juudai but he can read it if he wishes to. ]

If you guys don't mind, can I ask a question?

What is... "darkness of heart" to you?

[[ icon and mood to cover private not because I don't have an angsty Johan icon

1% used on various blips of the Juudai/Johan/Darkness three-way duel to learn that Juudai is apparently his darkness of heart; also some childhood fillers and such. ]]

OLETTE; TSUNA -
Hey, you know what~? It's already been around eight months since we all arrived. Remember back then, with the tournament and all?

It's been awhile since we've done something, just the three of us, right? You guys up for it~? Well, I guess I see Tsuna every day at work, but that's not the same.

Or if you guys are too busy, maybe we can meet up at the festival for a little while.

Haha, you two keep leaving me behind in the dust between the dating and other friends and all that.

[[ Strikes crossed out several times; readable if you squint and stare for awhile. ]]

Ah... that was weird and creepy. I hope I don't ever act like that again.

JUUDAI -
Sorry for... kind of being your creepy stalker for the week. Haha...

PRIVATE [ hackable ] -
But he seemed happy that whole time, so maybe it was worth it.

Juudai~ Juudai. Juudai. Where are you?

Come talk to me, Juudai~ I want to be near you.

i want you to... love me... juudai~  

[[ forgive me if my Yubel!Johan is a little off; I gotta rewatch those episodes, >_____> Also note that his eyes are not actually yellow. ]]

JUUDAI -

Hey, Juudai, I got you something from the pet store. You don't have a roommate right now, right? So I bet you need some company!

ELIWOOD -

I hope I'm not overstepping my boundaries by buying these guys... if they'll bother you, then I can return them.

Also, the book from the library says you should let them fly around occasionally, and that they go back to their cage after some time... but they don't have to if it's too bothersome.

PUBLIC - [ voice post ]

Aa, so, I bought two cockatiels today! I - I wasn't exactly planning on it, but I went in and they looked kind of like they wanted a home... I guess I shouldn't be won over so quickly, though. But the book I got from the library says that they're trainable. It would be kind of cool to have trained birds around!

I wonder what I should name them. They're pretty cute, and they - ow, it - it's biting my finger - owww - um, I can't really think of good names for them.

What's all this I hear about watermelons? I've never really seen one before, as far as I can remember. I think it was too cold where I lived for them to grow.

Aa, so, anybody up for checking it out, if you haven't already? Olette? Juudai? Tsuna? Yubel? Sakura? Anybody?

It's been kind of quiet lately, I think. I guess I'm just too used to widespread madness, haha~

Although... usually, just when it starts to get calm around here, something weird happens again. 

Hey, Juudai, you still up for learning Duel Monsters?

Edit: Spoke too soon, as usual.

Hey, this is kind of weird. I remember playing playing Duel Monsters, but for some reason, my deck has more cards than it did in my memories.

Gem Spring, Golden Rule,  The One Worth Protecting, Gem Split, Sapphire Revive, Mine Blasting, Rainbow's Gravity, Damage Capture, Trap Strap, and Rainbow Life. I wonder if that's supposed to be significant somehow? And I'm missing a card too, apparently.

Or maybe I just added some more cards to my deck. That's just as likely, haha~

[[ and no, there is really no significance to this lol. ]]

[[ this bit was supposed to be private but Johan doesn't notice that he's accidentally made it public ]]

Wish I'd had a camera, though, if it's always going to take that much work to make somebody smile. I could have taken a photo or something! Haha.

[[ the rest of it is public on purpose. ]]

Has everybody been well~?